The IC Anon Questions Meme

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The IC Anon Questions Meme!

How this works.

✪Post with your Character! Name and series go in the header.

✪Go find another character! Go anon and ask them questions. They can be as ridiculous, serious or random as you want.

✪Go answer the ones people have left for you!

Comments

[dancinghaze]

To be honest, I was always jealous of Shino. Not that it was fair to her, it wasn't her fault that she had befriended Haseo before me, or that she looked like me - or should I say I looked like her? She was there first. And then she was in that coma...

But that didn't change how jealous and angry I was, or how it really hurt to know that Haseo was just looking at me - through me - to remember her.

I know it’s not very nice of me to think such things, but I couldn't help it. I wanted to be valuable and desired; I wanted to belong. I didn't want to be someone’s replacement, temporary or otherwise.

And when she sent me that e-mail after waking up from her coma asking me to come meet her in the cathedral... I was scared. Terrified, really.

I didn't want to lose Haseo, not after everything that had gone on - the tournaments, Sakaki, Haseo’s friend in that room, Cubia. I was afraid that with Shino back, he might not want to be around me anymore. I was even more afraid to meet this girl that was so much better than me... I didn't want to compare myself to her, to think about how she was smarter than me or better at playing this game… or how she had been closer to Haseo than I was.

And then when I met her, it felt like everything I am was simply an insult to her.

Um, this is - this is a lot harder to talk about than I thought.